John Green puts it oh so well. youtu.be/3lkn8MS3n8Q
"Adulthood is this monolithic creature. Like, you acquire your job and your spouse and then you just ride it out until time's winged chariot shows up... 95% of romantic stories end with partners committing to each other because everything else after that is just the blank terrifying morass of adulthood. This terrifying monotonous grind in which the only real excitement in your life is occasionally finding a truly ripe avocado at the grocery store."
Not that I'd want to go back to this time last year to when I was still at university. Hell no, that was a bit too much excitement. The feeling of constant gnawing, agonising guilt at every wasted moment not spent on university work was not a fun place to be. I remember even feeling guilty taking time to sleep for 7 hours instead of <6. No thanks. It took me literally months to wind down and to stop feeling guilty. I'd get nightmares about having forgotten to hand in my dissertation and it being past the deadline.
When I was young I always thought when I got to this age, I'd know what I was doing. Adults know EVERYTHING right? I'm nearly 23, I still have no clue what the hell is going on . Everything can be summarised in this one picture: emilymueller143.files.wordpres…
So- to combat the terrifying monotonous grind of adulthood, I've been plotting. I have a list of things I'm going to do or make happen, a lot of these are already in motion:
I went to a primary school and did a talk on illustration. It was really successful. So since then I've applied to a course in primary school teaching. So- if that goes ahead- and I'm really not sure either way, I may be starting a new course in September to become a teacher! If that works out... big if... BAM, new career.
I'm currently learning to drive. My theory test is booked for April and hopefully I'll sit my test a few months after that. Woopee! Increased independence.
I'm applying for a new place to live with my partner, so when that happens I'll have my own house! This is great because at the moment we're living in a 1 person flat. Its a squeeze for 2 people. So things will be much more comfortable.
I'm going to go on holiday with my friends to see Eurovision in a few months Plus I have at least 2 more trips planned to go and see concerts and friends.
I've spoken to a local gallery about showing my work. If things come of that, maybe that will be exciting project...
So with a few of those things on the go, things are looking less boring.
I don't know about anyone else, but for me this has felt like the longest winter ever. This year we had a solid month and a half of gale force winds. Every single day. When the weather finally broke, the wind stopped and the sun came out, it was so beautiful. There were a few storms that happened in England at the time, at most they were only a few days long. In one news report there was a man looking out at the sea breaking over a sea wall and telling the news reporter "Its like end of the world!" I couldn't help but laugh. We'd already had that level of wind for a month and it hadn't been picked up by the national news.
When it ended one of my friends put up on facebook "The day every Shetlander cried" with a photo showing the view from his house with blue skies and sunshine. It was very apt.
Back to the title of this journal... I've updated my deviantart profile and cleaned up various bits and added a few things in. I've also updated my portfolio. So if you could check it out and tell me what you think that would be great heylorlass.daportfolio.com/
The other cool thing was I realised since updating my deviantart profile is I can officially say I'm a 'professional artist'. Having been in my job almost a year now, I think its pretty awesome. It sounds better than the reality, but still, you gotta give yourself these little victories
How are you all getting on? Tell meh ev-ury-ting
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